Random thoughts

Well tonight I am just glad I have the house to myself *Sorry hubby* I mean it in the best way.

I just have been struggling. I think I am lost in "The Fog" and for those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about - reference to Dare To Dream, Work To Win by Dr. Tom Barrett. I am stuck in the middle of what I want, what I think I should do about it, actually doing something about it, and just how, where, who, when?!! I have been growing, learning, and showing myself I'm capable of so much more than I thought. Yet what is this struggle I feel I am having?

 Well I figured out I haven't been putting in an effort towards a TEAM. I have some amazing clients and It has moved me up in the market plan, but I have no one to share it with! I really want to bring people to a Success Training Seminar (STS) where the moment you walk in, everything else stops and you want to dance! The music blaring, the people lined up on both sides creating a walkway to high five you - just because you made the decision to show up!! People standing on chairs, singing, dancing, laughing, and yelling at the top of their lungs, just pure joy and happiness and positive energy! Or how about the fact I get to go to Chicago for work in July, it's called the Extravaganza!! How alluring is that?! Well it's just as amazing as it sounds, so my thing is - I want to share that with people!! I want to be able to take some of my experience and show it to the world if it meant they could come join with me.  I know at the bank, my meetings sucked and well now I'm looking forward to them! 

How do I get more people in my business? That's the question.... 

I do my invites, my stickies, my this and that.... I'm creating my 90 day plan and seeing what works and what fails. I will keep you updated!! 

The lows

Okay, so I quit my job! What's next?!

Well, we have an amazing thing called, the internet. This allows me to work from home! *TAADAA!* lol So with that amazingness, I started to realize how my social media impacted my work.

When I quit - no joke I quit at a bad time. I didn't have $ saved up - and if you think the military pays well... join and see for yourself. Not that it's a terrible paying job ... and well that's not what this is about. I usually brought in an extra $800 a month from the bank, part time, 11.30 an hour - it honestly was nice for part time. Well since I quit so abruptly it seriously put some damage on our normal spending habits. I honestly didn't understand what I could do to make that money come in again. I knew for a fact I had an opportunity at the palm of my hands, but for some reason I didn't grasp how to use it. We started struggling and well fighting and arguing about money. I felt terrible.

I really had no idea how much my decision impacted our lives, and I'm the one who put us in a bad position. I cried, I seriously just sat down, broke down, and bawled my eyes out. I mean I let my own husband down, and as his wife, I felt like crap. Honest to God, CRAP.

I'm not going to tell you I woke up the next day and made $500.. because I didn't. I'm going to tell you that well, it took time. I went to an event we have called Leadership Development Weekend, and thank the Lord for Sam and Amy Hendricks. Those guys were mind blowing, I mean no joke - when someone says you'd had to of been there, literally there is no other way I could explain it. They taught me key lessons and tips, and how to look up and inspire myself and others. I learned how I could pick up my business and make it start going, at the pace I wanted.

I did it, I started to see more people coming to me about Herbalife. I had posted pictures after pictures and status's and this and that on my social media websites and I went out and talked to people, and said what they told me to say - SIMPLE is what is was. I have finally started to build up my business more and more, I learned that it wasn't about making the money. It is honest to God - caring about other people.
A bit of a reality check I would say. ... I've grown so much stronger with how I do things, why I do them, and what I am able to do next, and it was a lot to do with opening my heart to care more about everyone else.

It wasn't to hard, I really am a loving person - at least that's what I'm told. And really, I genuinely want to see someone as happy as I am because of the same exact thing. I create family, friends, bonds with people over a simple common interest and experience. I LOVE MY JOB NOW.
I may not be making the $800 a month yet, I mean I'm getting there, but all it simply took was the belief that I could do it. I started to dream again, like when I was a little kid. I saw that the possibilities to my future rely on my own work. My work reflects what I am worth and if I put in no work, I am simply worth nothing. If I didn't have my low times of crying, and asking myself why I quit, or why I joined Herbalife; then I wouldn't have the answers and the clear path that I can now follow to my future.

*I am not saying to quit your job and do what I do, this is not for everyone, it is for people willing to put in work and willing to have a dream. Do not quit your job and expect to make millions right away, I'm not even there yet myself - I just know one day I will be.

Here's a picture too to show you just how far I've come with my own weight loss journey, and to show I'm real, I'm honest, I'm just expressing what I know, and how I feel.

I have lost 24 lbs, of fat and gained 5 lbs of muscle. I have some amazing energy and I'm ready to share it with the world!!

"An extensive questionnaire generated responses from more than 200 U.S. Herbalife Independent Distributors about their weight-loss programs and results. They reported weight loss ranging from 4 pounds to 167 pounds and a reduced body mass index (BMI) of 1.5 points to 24.1 points, suggesting that consumption of Herbalife® products is associated with weight loss and improvement in BMI in those ranges. Lean weight gain depends upon individual metabolic factors, exercise and overall diet" 


For my next post
Meal planning, food struggles, and whatever comes to mind :)

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I answer to no one.

Okay, so after the fluctuating weight, and me actually setting my goal and doing it right;  I decided I needed to make a full on change - again.

I was at the bank, working and doing my regular routine; and I was noticing that I honestly was dreading the day, dreading going to bed because I knew I had to do it all over again, and dreading the pure fact that I had to deal with the people I worked with. (Quite frankly I'm a very blunt person and I don't like to take the crap a lot of people seem to think they can dish out, just because of position or power they think they have.) Now I won't use names, but I had a terrible boss - who doesn't in Corporate America - [now if you love your boss, or all of your co workers, congrats and you have it GOOD]. Anyways, I would show up and always had to have a talk with someone about something that happened at some point. My goodness, I tried I put my effort in - but the more I sat back and observed the people I was around - the more I wanted to just slam someone's head into the counter. Okay...maybe not that intense... however I really didn't appreciate how people spoke to one another, how they demanded and didn't even have the audacity to ask for something that could have been very simple or even the most complex. There was no respect for anyone except the BCM and the AM (with each other only). Let's give an example I guess - just to show how silly but irritating it was.

MY LAST DAY OF WORK.
I had to go in for the regular monthly meeting Friday mornings at 7:45am. No big deal right?! Who cares that I had to leave to go home and come back in at 12:30 for a shift - I could at least get things done around the house, even though staying and getting my day done early would have been just as easy. Well whatever there - at the meeting....
We do role plays - because we have to up-sell credit cards and promote the new things that are happening in the bank * So we practice with one another, and as we get a few moments to go over something and plan what we will be saying to one another, my boss says stop as I'm finishing up a sentence to my partner... and she stops me and well "politely" asks me to be quiet.. yes that is in quotations because yes I'm being very sarcastic. Moving on, I let it go - whatever right - well it was towards the end of the meeting, I started to fold a piece of paper that was handed out, so I could put it in my purse to take home for a while - as I'm doing so [not even loud might I add] she stops. Stops talking in the middle of her sentence and stares at me, thus leading to everyone else just staring at me making me look like a jack ass for FOLDING MY PAPER. She then says "Are you done yet?" !@#$!@%$ is what I felt like saying. Instead I just let it go and said "My bad, yes I am." I know it sounds ridiculous, but being put on the spot for something like this in front of your co workers, and you ending up always being the jack ass...... mmmm no... not for me.

Already frustrated I had to go in for a meeting - when I could have been sleeping... little things that happened in the meeting made me gag at the thought of going back in to work. I sat there and I thought of all the good and all the bad of working at Bank of America - well needless to say there were probably 70 bad things I could think of off the top of my head and then 10 good things. There no longer was the magical feeling that I once had while training, and learning regulars names and having a sucker every now and then. If anyone is good at math or you can just look at it as simple as 1/7 incidences being good - it wasn't enough good to deal with the bad. I was done.

I ANSWER TO NO ONE.
No seriously, I hate it - but this is the song that came on my shuffle right as soon as I was half way home, already cursing her name and despising half the crap that went on the week before. And if anyone knows this song I answer to no one by Colt Ford, then you can imagine my inspiration.
Quickly, I turned around, walked back in and I set me keys on her desk, and said I quit. I can no longer work for you and I just don't feel comfortable anymore. She hardly said a word... "Okay." was all I received. Really?! Not a why, not a anything?! Well I knew she hated me for something I must have done - beats me - honestly she was one of the biggest pains in my ass for no reason.

Fast forward to me getting back in my car. I felt shock, I felt relief, I felt freedom, but most importantly I felt happiness. And thinking more and more, I felt security. I thought "what an idiot, now I won't have a paycheck" .. but what I forgot for a slight moment, was I had something I could create dreams with, and do from the comfort of my own home and well just answer to myself. (and my hubby a little bit - you know the wifely duties I picked up more and focused on).

This, was the best day of my life (work wise). I have never felt such a rush of being able to fire my own boss. I couldn't believe it and my husband thought I was a little crazy, but he completely understood - even when he was deployed he had to listen to my bad day at work.  I'm not saying I will never have another bad day, because I know there will be struggles and there will be a lot of hard work on the road ahead of me, but I just felt at the right place in my life for once.

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The struggle is real... lol

*Disclaimer about the bank... They do this for your own good - I can't say they get commission or anything from it. In fact - they do it because they really do want to help you lower interest rates, and establish credit, get more bang for your buck... and I recommend sitting with a banker once a year to go over whats new and how you can improve your finances. :D *